My Heart Aches

This blog is just me venting about a conversation that I had last night on Face book. My mind is at a complete loss for thoughts and words about two people who were once so strong in the church can fall away so far and not realize the lives that they are living is so against God's word. And I just wanted to add in that I was not perfect in any way, right after I moved out of my parents house I fell away, and got tangled up in the world, but the whole time I felt so guilty, and I was looking over my shoulder the whole time wondering if I would get caught in any way. I am so glad and so thankful that I came back to God before it was too late. OK back to the story- It started out about one guy joining a group to "overturn prop. 8" which then was replied by someone asking him why he would join something like that. In which he returned saying that everyone should be able to love whomever they want even if it is someone of the same sex as them. Which of course sent me into a fury of why this person would even make a comment such as that, and by midnight last night there were 57 comments in which that guys brother and cousin got in on it and my 2 sisters and a cousin trying to show book, chapter, and verse in the Bible all of passages about homosexuality (which these 2 bothers know these passages b/c they were raised in the church and their dad is still an elder at one), but they seemed to be unfazed by it and thought that we were small minded and the reason that bigotry, and hypocrisy were still alive. I feel bad for their parents who are still very strong Christians in the church that their only 2 sons have fallen so off of the path. One went off to California to become an actor which was probably his first mistake, getting mixed up in that worldly lifestyle. And ironically enough the other brother went off to preaching school at Southwest- then got mixed up in a lifestyle that he shouldn't of and is now going into the military to try to turn his life around or so I thought before last night. I pray for both of these brothers every night that something would prick their hearts and turn them back to God before it is everlasting too late. What makes me even sadder is that I grew up with both of these guys and the one is my age and we were the best of friends. I remember being in bible class one time( I think it was in junior high) and the teacher told us to look around and that only about 1 out of 5 of us would stay strong in the church- and we looked around and there were about 10 or more in the class and we laughed b/c we couldn't imagine that that would ever be true and now today there are 4 of us that are still in the church and the rest have fallen away. And now as a parent I look at my kids bible classes and it makes me think of that and it makes me instill God's word even more into my kids head, and hope and pray every night that they will remain good, and strong Christians for the rest of their lives and that they will find a good, and strong Christian mate that will help them go to Heaven. I know that there will be some rough times to go through but as long as we follow God's plan for us then we will be fine. OK I feel better now that I have said all of this- sorry if this is not one of my best.